it was an ambitious attempt all along n i knew it from the start.
ever since the end of finals.

embarked on 2 mths intensive training scheme. did nothing else (literally)
gave it my all but i think it just aint good enough. aint joining the event for fun/experience. my intentions were much bigger than that. it was really hard to let it go and it had been occupying my thoughts this couple of weeks.

i worked my ass offf. managed to hit 1006/1440 for a full fita rd. i know it can be increased in the next couple of weeks. but i knew this push was far too extreme. and i cld injure myself.
i know the squad's std. even hitting 1100s wldn't be even close. plus IKO haha. my IKO totally sucks.

welll...there's still next year. but the question is where'll i be then... depressing i know. hahaa
next time rd. i wld start 6-12mths stint and hit 1300ss....hahahaaaaa
i'll feel better soon i guess....

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